Yup, I'm Freaking Out...

For whatever reason this week it hit me that I'll be leaving soon. In one way I am so excited and I've been talking to some of the other people in the program over Facebook and am really wanting to just be in Spain. But, in a different way I am a complete mess and freaking out. I'm worried that my Spanish won't be good enough. I'm worried about all of the people I am leaving here. My parents, my boyfriend, my grandparents, my kitties, and my puppy. I am so afraid that something will happen while I am gone and that I won't get to spend the time I want with everyone. My dog is old (14 years) and as much as I want her to be around when I get back, I know there's a good possibility that she might not be. If there was a way to guarantee that when I get back all will be as I want it to be, my life would be so much easier and I would feel so much better about going. I'm also still in summer school for another 3 weeks and I'm feeling very crunched for time. I'm trying to focus on getting through my classes, but it is so easy to get distracted by the things I also have to do to get ready for Spain. It's hard to delegate my time and do all of the things I want and need to do =/