Transformations

This whole trip has been and will be an eye opener - an opportunity to grow as a person and expand my horizons.

While that has its implications in my life as a whole, there are things I'm seeing clearer and clearer as time goes on.

First, as it has been for many years and always will be - I am mature beyond my years and because of that making friends with people my own age will forever be difficult. Just need to get over this fact and cherish the friends I do have that share the same values as I do.

Second, I want to be a domesticated woman. I'm talking cooking, cleaning, organized, mom - no that doesn't mean I'm giving up my career - I just value a clean house with creative food dishes and things that have a specific place.

Third, in regards to above - I want my apartment. I love living with mis padres, but I can't wait to have my house that I can do with as I like and do the things I want to do when I want to do them. However, realistically I'll probably live at home until I get married to save money and because I really don't wanna live with a roommate and I don't wanna live with my boyfriend or fiancé before the wedding. I wanna be able to say "Hey let's go to our house", not oh it's just another normal night.

Fourth, my closet. I haven't grown since probably 5th grade. And all of my clothes in my closet are the same things that have been there since high school. And it really just dawned on me that in a year I will be graduating from college. Scary thought right? But I really need to work on my wardrobe - get some things that are going to do me good for the next couple years. Only problem is I'm gonna be poor by the end of this. Other problem - all of my current clothes are getting beat to shit here.

Fifth, I finally did something I said I was going to do a long time ago - signed up for ballet class, with Spaniards. Won't be starting until January, but it'll be a good opportunity to meet some people and practice more.

Sixth, I may be starting to teach english for my host cousin. She's 7 and super cute. We will see what happens.

That's all for now. Gonna go try and find dinner and shower and do homework and get room put back together. I'm a mess as always...